So, this post is one that is extremely personal to me (‘cause, up to this point, the posts haven’t been??). I’ve known what I want to say for a while now, but have not been able to bring myself to sit down and write it out. There are likely many reasons for this, but they all end up in the same place – fear (or terror, which is the new word that I’m supposed to be dealing with).
Terror that speaking up and out will be met with criticism and alienation. I have spent so much of my life building myself into the person that I want other people to perceive me as that I have often hidden what I actually am: a broken and flawed individual.
You might be saying, “but everyone is broken and flawed”, and you are correct. But how often do people come right out and say it. How often do we let our cracks show? How often do we stand up and say “LOOK AT ME! I’M DAMAGED AND I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW IT!”? How often do we say, “I’m bleeding from scars you can’t see but they hurt me in ways that I can never fully express”? From my experience, we don’t.