My ex got engaged. This is the last axe that needed to fall to sever all attachment. It’s strange, because he has been in my dreams lately, which I know signifies a release or letting go of attachment. I must have felt this coming, so I was already in a state of release when this news hit.
Some people might say, “It’s been six years, how are you still not over this.” But that is the thing with emotions and relationships, you don’t just “get over them.” Sometimes emotions coming flooding back unexpectedly, and you need to process them, otherwise there is no release and they will lie in the shadows waiting to strike at any time. There is no statute of limitations on how long it take to process emotion. You just have to let it run its course.
I read the news on Facebook last night and it struck me. It took a while to process what I was feeling. I went into shock. I felt numb and electric all at the same time. My first response was to email my therapist. I needed to be witnessed in this. It was late and I knew she wouldn’t receive it until the morning, but I needed to send out a white flag – I need extra support and my therapist tends to be my first responder.